The sun did manage to colour the sky beautiful pale yellow today. I could not feel but happy when looking at the sight. This dreadful warm winter is coming to an end in a few weeks and the blessed spring with light is on her way. Every time I managed to drag my eyes off the current work in progress, I felt delighted, but the moment my eyes found Winter Forest my feelings sank. I am not happy with the sweater. Not happy at all. I am slowly making myself to admit that it has to be ripped one more time and serious redesigning will be necessary or then maybe not.
This is me trying it on today.The yoke is too big hence making the sleeve openings too wide. I really don’t like how the yoke looks; I should have done raglan sleeves because now the upper torso looks puffy and even though I know blocking would probably take care of that, I still dislike it very much. I don’t like the stitch pattern, instead of twisting the knits, I should have lifted them every other row, like in the old design. I have started the skirt part of the sweater too late, so the line falls a bit too down. I have wasted more than a month of knitting time – there is no denying. And yet the topmost thought on the pile of unhappy thoughts of this sweater is relief.
What should I do?
Do I rip this now and start over?
Do I postpone the ripping until later, let it linger for a while and quickly start something else pretending that this never happened? And then later, much later, rip it, because later it will be regarded as UFO and not as a failure and getting rid of it then would be easier?
Does this mean that since the very first knit of the year turned crap, all the rest of 2008 will end up the same way? If I start this over, does this mean that I could escape the curse?
Or does this mean that since the big failure is over and done now, the rest of the year 2008 will be smooth successful knitting? I think I will take this option.
Really there is something good in this fiasco and this I can say honestly. I have had a few hours to chew this and I am very happy about the state of things right now. The whole time while knitting Winter Forest I had a feeling of something being very wrong and off and it has been eating the knitting enjoyment a lot. Now that I am able to point my finger at it and say what is wrong, things seem to be a lot simpler and like a weight has been lifted off my chest. And I can now see clearly and breath easily.
Isn’t that the case in real life too? Once you realize what is eating up you, you can either get rid of it or start making a plan how to conquer it or if not quite conquer, at least come into terms with it, accept it.
Thank you for encouraging me to continue chain plying. And for the trick of untwisting the over twisted yarn by running it once again from one bobbin to the other in opposite direction. You wondered what I have done with my singles when I have knitted with the yarn. I think I have only once used singles for one little scarf and that time I think I set the twist by steam. This Satakieli yarn that you were thinking for mittens is smooth and strong and beautiful (not fuzzy at all) but I can’t see a reason why you should not try spinning that Finn lamb wool you have. The milk I bought from a yarn store… The picture really is of a skein of yarn that is spun of milk fibre. I have not yet knitted with it, but it is very soft and seems a bit heavy, not bulky but heavy.
Oh, and please, don’t feel sorry for the Winter Forest or me, this is not the end, actually this is a very good beginning.
Take care, be warm and be well,