If you need inspiration, don't read this.
I have been knitting for a looooooooong time, longer than I care to think of. I have been sewing for a good many years, it started with quilting, then continued as making clothes. First I tried to make quilted clothing but they all came out looking like tea cosies on me so I turned to store-bought fabrics. I have been felting and some have turned out the way I have pictured. Embroidery is not that new to me, spinning quite new, but I sort of know how my yarn will turn out and am slowly gathering information what I’m aiming for. But when it comes to weaving, it is taking on a path that is all very new to me. What a humbling experience to unwrap the cloth beam and see that the cloth is not at all what I expected…
So here. (You are not getting a better picture of it, because I don’t want to look at it. I will distract myself with a picture of snow.)Please don’t say anything about it. I’m having a hard time coming here to write about the failure. Yes, that is the only word that will describe the outcome. I have told me that I’m learning yet. But do I want all this learning and my stash turning into these ugly rolls of fabric?
This might very well be the end of my crafting life.
I’m afraid of taking on anything today. Maybe my ability to do anything good is gone? When I look at my stuff on this table, I see a pair of socks that are on the needles. They are knit from toe up and I hate to knit socks that way, so I stopped and lost my desire to knit socks. Then I tried to make a small pincushion, which turned ashtray but is lying on the table as a reminder, so no desire to do any embroidery. I have two bobbins full of singles needing to be plied but as soon as I started to make two ply, I regretted it, and now think that it should be three ply, so no desire to spin. To sew, I would need to clean the desk to have room for the machine. And to top this off, this humbling roll of ugly fabric folded on the back beam of the loom and the old end of the warp hanging from the loom very sad looking.
I think I will go out of this room, will close this door, lock the door, throw out the key and forget all that is in this room for good.
Just how do you wipe out 96 % of your life? Do you have any suggestions?